What this is really about.

Looking forward to a date with myself.

The opportunity, in a few months to sit down and have a conversation.

self, you are out of debt.
you are free of obligations.
you have enough money in your pocket.

what do you want to do?

I will be able to go anywhere in the world and do anything I want to. Good savings and no debt and a clean slate are enough to at least start a life really anywhere in the world. I could get a start in NYC or France or go to the the Antarctic or move to Montana or drive the AlCan highway or take the train across Siberia, move to an island in the south pacific, any of the hundreds of things I've always wanted to do. African safaris.

Meanwhile, the research focuses on Ecuador and I will be pleased to end up there if I don't decide differently that afternoon sitting in the trees or at the ocean.

Think of what abundance that is.

Talk about a truly privileged life, who gets to do that? Who on the planet gets to have that date with themselves. Such a small percentage. So many people will never ever get that opportunity, and so many who could have it will never choose it.

For the rest of my life I will know that I have experienced true abundance. True privilege. To have gotten to make a conscience decision about what to do with my whole life with every opportunity open to me.

As someone who has always fought tooth and nail against being told I must do something, I guess this will be my best revenge. For at least a moment, not one single person, including myself, will be able to tell me what I must or mustn't do.

That rules.

Also, it's kind of scarey.